Ok, I am the first to admit that I am not a shy, reserved person. I like talking to people, and as long as you don’t look creepy I have no problem striking up and continuing a conversation. The thing I’ve noticed recently is that sometimes I feel too enthusiastic talking to someone – almost as if I’m a walking exclamation point. A usual “Hi!” turns into “HIIII!” and my “How’s it goin” turns into “WASAAA?” accompanied by a giant dorky grin.
And then I feel foolish.
Like, there’s no reason for me to be at a 10.0 enthusiasm, sometimes as early as 7 in the morning, before anyone has had their coffee and is actually awake enough to expect it.
I have come to the conclusion that my overabundance of emotion has to do with my level of tiredness. As in, when I don’t sleep at night, the next day I turn my full freak on and carry on highly enthused. And when I do get in my full 8 hours, I’m closer to a flat line. It makes sense – when you’re exhausted why not fake the awake? Telling yourself you have so much energy and acting like you have all that energy psychologically messes with your brain. As long as you don’t go overboard (ha, been there too) there’s nothing wrong with faking yourself out.
So basically, if you’ve seen me recently and I’ve been overly excited to see you?
I’m still actually happy to see you, but probably faking it just a little. Blame my late bedtimes.
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